Just do it!

I'm not trying to copy Nike or anything, believe me.

I was having a hard time last year figuring out whether or not God was leading me to do a missions trip down to Mississippi with a bunch of my friends. I was praying to God to lead me and tell me if it was something that he wanted me to participate in, but I was getting frustrated in the process. While being frustrated, someone told me that sometimes as Christians, we just have to go for it, and hope that it is in God's plans for us, and kind of go from there. See where it takes us and what comes from it. So, I went for it. And it was amazing. I got to connect with my friends in a deeper way than before and I got to see God's grace and mercy in so many different ways. I have so many fond memories from the trip and am very glad that I decided to go, and that I ended up following where God was calling me to go.

Right now I'm struggling with the same problem, contemplating a missions trip to the Czech Republic, only it's about $2000 more of a problem than the last missions trip ($2500 all together) - and the trip is in May for 2 weeks. I have a LOT on my plate over the next 3 months leading up to the trip, and I just don't know if I have the time and effort to put into fundraising and getting ready for a trip like that. But at the same time, I have not been able to let go of thinking that I want to go. I even filled out the papers during the Christmas break, brought them back, and they have just been sitting there, on top of my books...almost taunting me in a sense...saying 'send me Colleen, SEND'.

I was talking to a friend tonight, and I haven't really talked about the trip in awhile, because in my mind I've told myself I'm not going, and that I need a break before I start working at camp for the summer...but she was very positive, telling me that I can make the money in time, and was just telling me that I should do it. (but also suggested I pray about it).

Of course, I have been praying about it, but just can't tell what God is leading me to do. Maybe I'm right, maybe I do need a break and shouldn't go. But, why am I still thinking about it? Maybe I'm wrong, and I should just suck it up, do it, and see where God leads me on it!

Ugh. I just don't know. If you're reading this, please pray that God will lead me in the right direction, and whether or not I feel his direction, that I follow and do what He pleases for my life. I appreciate it, and you, and your prayers. :)