I'm really frustrated right now with the amount of choices I have over ONE major decision. I have decided to apply to my Masters of Education here at the University of Windsor. Within that one decision are so many other little ones.
Part-time studies or Full-time studies?
Course work, Major Paper, or Thesis (although, I've pretty much ruled out Thesis)?
Within those are other aspects I need to consider. If I am a full-time student, I'm not allowed to work full-time as a supply teacher (if I get on the board) -- which was my initial idea. BUT I can possibly get a Graduate Assistant job making $35/hr at 10 hrs/week (which is pretty good I think). And I have to take consecutive terms until I'm done (not allowed to have a summer off to make money).
Or, I can be a part-time student, only taking 2 courses a semester, but hopefully getting a job on the supply list and working full time while going to school. In this one, I can also take one term off (which, I would do next summer).
Honestly, I'm torn...as none of them are perfect situations. Of course, this is all depending on getting in, but I have to choose which way I'm going to go before I apply.
I feel called to be here in Windsor, especially to the church I'm attending, but why can't certain things be more clear? Ugh. I'm just frustrated. I know that things will work out...but it's bothering me currently. Need to think some more on it. No, I need to pray some more about it. Please pray for me, that God will show me the way, whether it's clear or not...just that I have some insight sometime soon. Also that I can find references, as I am not close with many teachers since it hasn't been a year focused on getting to know teachers...yikes.
OR - am I doing this just to stay in Windsor? Am I really passionate about doing this? I want to be a principal one day, so is this the right route to go? I'm so confused. I had a good morning of questions being answered, but then more questions came up, and lots of declined responses on being a reference for me...ahhhhhh.
I dont have the answers for your questions (obviously).. but I DO know that Gods carrying you through this, so try not to be so frustrated. Let go, let God.
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Hey Colleen, I am praying with you for sure.
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