I'm a planner. That's what I do with my spare time, is plan the spare time that I have in the future, or even plan my busy times. (However, I have a hard time sticking to the "homework" times the past few weeks...but that's a different story.) With two jobs, volunteering, two classes a week, commitments at church, and social activities, I am jam-packed with planning my days and weeks out. I get to plan the days I sleep in past 8 am, the times I have a few minutes to squeeze in a shower, and the meals I need to prepare for the week (fresh made, left overs, lunches to take to jobs/volunteering, etc). It never stops. My life revolves around planning (or so it feels).
My boyfriend jokes about it, because I'm constantly planning WAY ahead. He'll try and put off my planning as long as possible, but usually gives in as I continue to pester him with questions of trying to figure out plans for this weekend and that...not to mention Christmas break! Oh dear!...and even tonight I made comment about the summer...oh boy!
All this to say...I still get e-mails from the church I grew up at (and am still considered a member there, just away at school!) and the lady who sends out the e-mails now, signs off her signature with the saying, "We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps." Every time I see that, it hits me more and more in the heart about the truth of this saying. Of course, I've always understood this saying, but it just continues to sink in with every e-mail received. It's easy for me to plan a get-together, or plan when I'm going to do homework, but when you look at the overall picture, God is really doing the work and knows exactly where He wants you to be and when and why. It's just not always that easy to understand when looking at it from your own perspective...
Unfortunately, I'm an impatient person...and currently learning how to be content and patient in my position of teacher-seeking-for-a-job. I was talking to my friend from Ireland today, and I made the comment of "we wouldn't need God if life was going to be easy." Her immediate reaction was, "Thanks, that's just what I needed to hear". I'm not sure I believe there is such a life situation as "easy". Everyone has trials, everyone has problems, and everyone has barriers they have to overcome, no matter how much or how little they make, no matter what their life situation is. Some people just make it seem easy...and maybe that difference is Jesus.
Anyway, it's been a long week, with a long weekend ahead of working. I'm off to bed. G'night everyone and thanks for reading :).
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