Feeling Lonely

Hm, how to write this post...

I would be lying if I told you I am happy right now. Today is a weird day. I just posted on my mission blog about how we did our first presentations today in the local high school. They did go well, but I was definitely uncomfortable. That is a feeling I am starting to get used to. I obviously knew coming in that I was going to be the only girl, but I think it's hit me harder now that we're here and I don't really have someone to talk to and relate to in a 'female' way. The boys are living in another building than I am, and have different humor that I do, and...well, I just feel outta the loop. I know there's not too much I can do about it, I'm just telling you how I feel.

I'm trying to focus on the fact that I am NOT alone, because I have my best friend and Savior with me at all times. Maybe this is the time to listen and learn what God has in store for me through this experience. I dunno. I just know that I am holding back tears but also trying to figure out how to get out of this 'funk' attitude, because I don't want to look back and remember this feeling.

God Almighty, lift my spirits and help me to remember that I am here for you, and not for any personal gains and satisfaction. Give me the strength and energy to deal with people in a Christlike way, and to give off the love of Christ in every way possible. Thank you that you love me despite my sinful nature and my personal faults. Help me to strive to be like your Son, Jesus Christ, and to look to you when I need a helpful reminder of how to do that. Be with me this week and fill me with your Holy Spirit so that I can continue to do your work here at Bethel. In your holy and precious name I pray, Amen.