Some thoughts for a Saturday...

This past week has been out of the ordinary...I got to relax! It was much needed...so I am glad that I was forced to have a week of rest. I feel as if I am now fully rested and caught up on sleep (it's been a long time since I've felt that) and ready to tackle the next few busy months ahead.

Over the past few years, I've written the odd thing here and there about my schooling, and finally there seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel (with much struggling through the darkness of the tunnel - although I must admit that I had some great professors and experiences too). I have two more courses to go! By the end of July I will have completed my studies and will be launched into the 'real world' of a full-time job (hopefully), bills, and life. As much as I'm not looking forward to the bills, I am ready for it. I'm tired of this 'student life' where I can't (or maybe it's more purposeful and I don't) place much importance on certain aspects of my life because I just haven't had the space in my brain to focus on them! I guess my purpose up until this point has been to finish school. Get to that point and then I'm golden. Well, now I'm coming up to that point and it's definitely not the end of the road...it's just the beginning!

Knowing that school is ending, I have been trying to figure out what's next. My whole schooling purpose has been to become a teacher. So many job applications have been for that. However, there are also other jobs which have been coming up that I am also interested in. Every time that happens I have a miniature struggle in my mind as to whether or not I should apply for them, but in the end I can't pass up the opportunity to try something I know I would love to do.

Of course, it's not for me to know...yet. God has a plan, I am trustful of that. However, I'm impatient! I think that's been something God has been working on with me for a few years now...I just hope I've been a good student. This is probably one of the first times that I'm not "planning" ahead at this point. Come mid-July I will have to figure out where I'm moving based on where I potentially get a job..."old" Colleen would have planned it already. Of course, I can't say that I don't have options in the back of my head, I have to, but I am trying my best not to plan and get any "hopes" up of any sort. I just want to finish school, and then I can move forward with leaps and bounds to the next thing God has in store for me!

Heavenly Father, here I am. Ready and willing to follow You. Lead me, Father, and show me how I can serve you wholeheartedly and do Your will. Amen.